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...into wholeness.
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It's past four in the morning, and having been thinking when I should be sleeping, I'm going to write a journal note and probably publish it in daylight when I'm awake.
Here we go…
I like sit-reps—they're important chances to appraise and re-appraise.
Ok, so where am I…?
It's important to be honest with myself.
Although there's some projects I want to do, overall I prefer not to do business stuff. But I have to work—I need the money.
In dealing with health issues (cancer and prolonged repeated burnout) and trying to be retired, it's been a handful of years now since I was 'properly' active in business. (I've continued to do some minor stuff.)
And in the years immediately before that, with some significant marriage issues, I wasn't exactly hitting the high spots.
So to some considerable degree, I'm uneasy about returning to business and my chances of success. Yes I've got good projects, and I also know what to do, but I don't feel at all confident.
During the past couple of years, I've set about easing myself back in… not in a hurry, deciding what I want to do and how I want to do it.
I also thought I was ready (recovered from burnout) to relaunch myself, and subsequently discovered I clearly wasn't—and so withdrew again.
In no way attention-seeking, I won't understate the issue… the effects of which have been significant and continue.
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It's important for me to write and publicly publish this. Doing so will help me to better understand and accept, rather than continue to reduce my self-confidence and self-esteem because I often can't do things in the way I expect to be able to do them.
Prolonged, repeated burnout is a state of emotional, physical, and mental exhaustion, with various consequences. It can significantly impact the brain, affecting areas including the prefrontal cortex responsible for decision-making and emotional regulation.
Emotional: Exhaustion, cynicism, detachment, loss of motivation, feelings of helplessness, and a negative outlook.
Physical: Chronic fatigue, sleep disturbances, headaches, muscle pain, gastro-intestinal problems, and increased susceptibility to illness.
Behavioral: Withdrawal from responsibilities, using unhealthy coping mechanisms (like over-eating or substance use), social isolation, and procrastination.
Potential recovery requires prioritizing rest and self-care.
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Now, although still to some degree still struggling with burnout, and with continuing considerable depletion of self-confidence and -esteem, I'm ready to have a proper go at returning to significant business activity.
Earlier, I got carried away in trying to decide what I really wanted to do, and consequently have a ridiculous number of projects… too many to sensibly do and so I've jettisoned some.
And the others?
Well… I still have too many, but as they're all 'delivering information digitally' and with considerable crossovers in strategy and activity, I should be able to 'get away with it'… by pivoting some into producing books rather than ongoing websites, progressively introducing them over the next 2-3 years, outsourcing 'almost everything' and with extensive use of AI.
Fortunately, start-up costs are next to nothing. I don't have a lot of money, just a small amount of savings, from which I put probably £1k into domain and other initial costs.
I'll begin with a couple of projects which are relatively straightforward and should produce reasonably speedy profit which I can use to begin other projects and then repeat the process of 'funding the next one from the previous one'.
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